i dont mind not getting a spot all the time, i just enjoy being with a group of people that know what they are doing, and like to have fun doing it.
my maturity? ok, i know when to be serious, but most of the time, im not, because im a fairly sarcastic person, and like to joke around; it lightens the mood, and gets people to loosen up and not stress so much.
i wish u would reconsider, but if not, im sorry, but i feel you're losing out on a very good, and skilled lock, that has the know-how, to get things done.
im in the airforce, every aspect of my life has to be serious and precise, so when i come home to log on, im a goofy guy because its my only way to relax and wind-down, after long and stressful days.
p.s. you try dealing with troops that were you're friends, that have wive's, that have kids, that are dieing on a daily basis, and tell me how sane you'll be after a while; my sarcasm, which is often mistaken for "immaturity" is my coping mechanism.